Still Asking. Still Trusting: A Mid-Year Prayer Update

Dear Lovely Reader, 

I have had two blog posts on my mind for weeks. One being my Psalm 8 (part 2), and now this follow-up to my 40 random facts about me. I ended the last post of that series with the words of my friend, "What is one of your favorite things about last year?" And "What is one thing you want to accomplish in the next year?"

I had every plan to answer that, but as I began to write my post (because, yes, most times I write it out by hand before typing it up), I realized I didn't really do that. Loosely but not really.

At the beginning of the year, I wrote out my prayers for 2026, and I have been blessed to see how God is answering them. The year is only halfway done, and I am blessed to see how God will answer the others. 

📌Yellow note card — "Prayers for 2026."

• God's healing power in my life, enabling me to experience His peace, hope, and joy.
• Rely more on His facts than my feelings
• Being fully funded
• Pray for my heart to be restored in Him so I'm open to another relationship (in His timing)
• Movement of the Holy Spirit, so there is revival for God throughout Sharpstown
• Embrace what God desires?
• That I may hear Him clearly

Praise:

• My job is support-raised, and if you would like to learn more, please sign up for my mailing list (link). I am truly grateful to share that, while I am not yet fully funded, I have reached a strong percentage — something that has been a significant challenge for me over the years. This progress is an incredible answer to prayer, and I am deeply encouraged by how far God has brought me.
  
  
• My heart is being actively restored, and I am in a relationship with a wonderful man who is pointing me more and more to Jesus. Last week, I shared a prayer request, and he said he was praying and thinking about it too. I thought it was awesome God has us on the same path, even if we don't talk about it.

Prayers:

• I continue to pray for revival in Sharpstown, because I see so many nations represented in this part of Houston. I truly believe if revival were to happen here, it could transform not only Houston but also nations around the world.
• Still truly trying to embrace who God desires me to be (that will probably be a lifetime prayer).

🙏 Back to praises and a little bit of prayers:

• God's healing in my life… The end of 2024 and a lot of 2025 were hard for me. I sat in a lot of grief, shame, and regret, so I prayed for restoration. I can't say I have reached the pinnacle of His peace, hope, and joy. I think there are still things I am working through with God, but there is a lot more light than darkness.

I don't know when I wrote the blue card, probably later in January or early February, but as much as I can proclaim things over myself* I prayed:

• Tears and pain would turn to rejoicing
• Doubts and fears would turn to certainty
• Longings would turn to trust
• Hurt would turn to hope
• Unforgiveness would turn to restoration
• Lack would turn to abundance
• Lack would turn to wisdom

God is graciously blessing me in many of these prayers, but looking over this list, I can still see some areas of struggle I need to actively turn over to the Lord. But as I said in my Psalm 8 (part 2) post, I am still crying out to God, "I trust, but help my untrusting."

I don't have a neat bow to tie on any of this — and honestly, I don't think I'm supposed to. Faith is a daily return. And so I'll keep returning, keep writing my prayers on little note cards, keep pinning them where I can see them. Because the card on my board is a constant reminder — "This is the confidence we have in approaching God: if we ask anything according to His will, He hears us." (1 John 5:14). He heard me when I wrote those prayers in January, and He is still hearing me now. 

💖 Lovely reader, He hears you too. So keep asking. Keep returning. Nothing you lay before Him is ever forgotten.

Thanks for reading and joining me in this journey. 

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* I often wrestle with how to approach proclaiming things—I don’t want to fall into a “name it and claim it” mindset. Still, I believe there is genuine value in trusting God with our lives and honestly expressing our desires to Him. I am thinking of verses- Psalm 37:4, 62:8, Philippians 4:6-7, and Romans 8:26-27, and I hope that if I am misunderstanding these verses or taking them out of context, you will graciously correct me. 

Turning 40: 40 fun facts about me (part 5)

Now that it is the final facts, I will say this has been a fun and interesting reflection on my life. 

33. First country I ever visited outside the U.S.? France, well, technically Spain, but all I did was get off the plane, get in a car, and drive on the highway to the cruise boat. So I am sticking with France. 

In a town where I got to see Roman ruins outside of Marseille
(Sorry, can't remember name)

34. Most random anecdote: I have been licked by a giraffe... my best friend in high school, Karen, and I were visiting Six Flags Marine World, and they had this opportunity to take a picture with a giraffe. Well, from what I remember, my friend held the salt stick to get the giraffe to come over to us, but she held it closer to me, and it licked me. Not sure why, but I freaked out, and somehow their telling me it was good luck to be licked by a giraffe calmed me down (I wasn't a Christian yet, so maybe that really did calm me down).

35. Favorite Boston memory: Going to John Lester’s no-hitter on my 23rd birthday or doing the Freedom Trail with visitors and stopping for some cannoli. 

At John Lester's no-hitter

But in all honesty, I mostly just hung out with my friends and watched movies at their apartments.  It was here I lived life, grew in my faith, and found a support system. 

36. Favorite Houston memory (not family related): Seeing Reba McEntire at the Houston Rodeo

But I would not have gone to the Rodeo if it weren't for the wonderful friends I have made at PLI... so I should give them a little shout-out. 

37. Favorite comfort food on a bad day: This is going to sound random, but when I am feeling really crummy, I like to make rice and eat it with butter and sugar. We ate a lot of rice when I was growing up because it was cheap and easy to make. 

38. What has been the hardest season of your life, and what did it teach you? I have struggled with depression on and off since my junior year of high school. The time that stands out most was after grad school, when I searched for a job, and nothing happened. Whenever friends asked about it, I wanted to cry or shout—I felt useless, disappointed, discouraged. Other friends seemed to get job offers right away. I cried out to God, “Why?” My quiet time became a checklist. I remember walking home from the train and wishing a bus would hit me and end it all.

I felt like dirt—worse than dirt.

Moving to Houston didn’t magically fix things; my problems followed me. I still scrambled and called out to God. One day, driving to a babysitting job, I thought a pickup truck would merge into me. I swerved into an 18-wheeler. Somehow, I only damaged my bumper and had a headache. I walked away knowing God must have a purpose for me. I’m still living in that truth.

39. Do you have any irrational fears or phobias? Yes, ants, and my roommate thinks it is hilarious that I love Ant-Man. 

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And falling out of a roller coaster. 

40. Favorite role in life (thus far): Being "Aunt Blaire," if you spend any time around me in real life, you will know my niece and nephews are my favorite subject to speak about (after Jesus). I'm always so proud of them; they hold my heart, and watching them grow up has been one of the biggest blessings in my life.

After putting all of this together, I'm already thinking about what comes next. A friend in Boston had a beautiful birthday tradition... every year, she would ask two questions: What was your favorite thing about the last year? And what is one thing you want to accomplish in the next year? I love that. Simple, intentional, and worth sitting with.

I think that deserves its own post... Stay tuned. 🎂

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Tune for Thursday: From Going Through the Motions to Going Deeper

 Dear Lovely Reader,

I don’t know about you, but I have been very blessed over my years of my Christian walk to have consistent quiet times. If I could have my way, I would probably spend an hour and a half to two hours in prayer and Bible time… but life happens, so this amount of time is usually reserved for Saturdays. However, lately I have felt my prayer life has been a bit surface-level, which has made me wonder why.

A couple of weeks ago, my church did a sermon on “The One Thing that is Necessary” using the story of Mary and Martha. {Link to Sermon on Youtube skip to 34:55}

But at the end of the sermon, Brad, one of our pastors, gave some practical tips:

1. Daily read, fix a time and place.
2. Pursue accountability
3. Confess: how many times do you talk to Him per day?
4. Attempt to share something that you read in your quiet time.
5. Memorize Scripture
6. Post Scripture where you can see it.
7. If it feels too intellectual, try including worship songs.
8. If your mind wanders, write out your prayer/meditation.

I wrote them down, but in my arrogance, I thought, “Just do it anyway.” There have been seasons in my life when my quiet time has just been a checklist duty, but in that, I know God blesses my obedience and that it will be fruitful.

Well, today I took some time to ask “God, why am I just feeling surface level?” Yes, I am busy, and there are a lot of moving parts, but I am walking through a season of basking in God’s love, feeling redeemed, restored, hopeful, and content. So why do my prayers seem so surface?

Was I just focusing on myself? When I do this, I turn to this prayer:  

From my prayer wall

"Heavenly Father, I thank you for the gift of life and the beauty of this world. I pray that you would fill our hearts with new hope and joy, especially for those who are struggling. May you bring healing and strength to those who are sick, comfort to those who are hurting, and peace to those who are weary. Bless all those around us, that we may know the power of your love and the strength of your grace.

May we be a source of light and hope to others, and may your will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Amen."

And I try to break it down line by line and list out people who need prayers for in each part.

But still, while there are always a lot of people to pray for, my prayers seemed surface-level, so I asked, “Is there something —a thought, and influence, a power that is not of YOU?” I couldn’t think of anything… but I went to Brad’s #7 tip “If feels too intellectual; try including worship songs.” And I searched for “Repentance songs” and found this playlist: Link. On it, it had one of the songs I have on repeat a lot, so here I am sharing it with you:

"Underdressed" by Gable Price and Friends

So I'll leave you with this — like Martha, are you so busy doing good things — even good spiritual things — that you haven't stopped long enough to ask, 'God, why does something feel off between us?' When was the last time you set down your checklist, sat at His feet, and simply listened?

Thanks for reading, and if you have any songs you like to listen to, to draw you closer to God, please share them with me. 

It Feels Like Summer… But I’m Still Sitting with Advent (Honest Advent Review)

 Dear Reader,

In my previous “Book Blurbs,” I wrote about what the book was about and how I felt about it.

From Amazon (link):

Has the joy of the holiday season become painfully dissonant with the hard edges of life? Do you feel weary from the way Christmas has become a polished, predictable brand? You aren't alone. For too many of us, Christmas has lost its wonder. What if we stopped treating the Christmas story as something that happened a long time ago and started believing it's still happening today?

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From celebrated artist and storyteller Scott Erickson comes Honest Advent: 25 days of illustrations and meditations to help you rekindle the wonder of this season. Honest Advent creates a space for you to encounter the Incarnate Christ in unexpected places: like a pregnancy announcement in an era of political unrest and empirical bloodshed, the morning sickness of a Middle Eastern teenager, and the shocking biology of birth that goes far beyond the sanitized brand of Christmas as we know it today.

Through powerful benedictions, prayers, and questions for honest reflection, you'll discover how the wonder of God-with-Us is still happening today: in your unexpected change of plans, your unaccomplished dreams, your overcrowded lodging, and your humble stories of new beginnings.

I will agree that Christmas has sometimes lost its wonder, not just because it is March, almost April, but because Christmas is a busy season in my job, there is an end-of-year giving campaign, and outside my job there is just a busyness in the rush of a season, but there is also a feeling of that things should be right in the world, and they aren’t, but as Advent is a time of coming I am looking forward to the second coming when Christ will set all things right.

I will say this book did its job of highlighting God showing up in the hardest parts of humanity, and while I would say parts of it “rekindle the wonder of God-with-us.” Mostly, it made me think and ponder: Where is God? What is he leading me to? How am I embracing the God-with-us? How is He embracing me?

The book does a good job of exploring what it means to seek meaning or inspiration during times when life doesn’t feel particularly full of wonder. However, a couple of aspects felt awkward. As both an artist and an author, Scott Erickson included some of his own artwork throughout the book. While some pieces were interesting, others came across as distracting.

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I did like this one of Eve placing her hand on Mary’s belly—in the picture, Eve is experiencing the hope and grace from brokenness she never thought she would see. Also, he used chunks of the page to highlight a quote he wanted to draw attention to, but sometimes it was in the middle of the page, making it nearly impossible to read. (But that is not so much about writing but about the publishing format).  

Not sure if I’ll read it again next Christmas, but that is still 9 or 8 months away (I’m not good at math).

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Overall, the book offers valuable insights into navigating spiritual searching during difficult times, even if some artistic choices occasionally detract from the reading experience. Despite these minor distractions, its thoughtful approach to seeking meaning makes it a worthwhile read.

Something to think about: 
What might change if I stopped looking for wonder in the way I expect it to appear, and instead learned to recognize God-with-us in the places that feel unfinished, uncomfortable, or quietly ordinary?