Thursday, September 29, 2011

The ABC's of Me

I thought I would end this week on a more positive light hearted note. Copied from Desirous of Everything
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A. Age: 25
B. Bed size: Single
C. Chores: Scooping my cat's litter box (fun right).
D. Dogs: I had a few dogs growing up but I have had malteses (little white balls of fluff), a silky terrier and a Lhasa Apso but now I have a cat but would one day love a King Charles Spaniel
E. Essential start to your day: Coffee and mascara
F. Favorite color: Pink, then blue and then maybe purple tied with green
G. Gold or Silver: Silver
H. Height: I am not sure 5'6" to 5'8"
I. Instruments you play: Nothing... tried the piano and viola but I am not musical though I do love to sing.
J. Job title: Membership Processor/ Student
K. Kids: Some day (2 hopefully then maybe adoption)
L. Live: Boston!

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M. Mother’s name: Lisa
N. Nicknames: BBB (from Dad), Little Bit (from Step-dad), Hiebey, bbhiebsch, Bliz
O. Overnight hospital stays: Well when I born.
P. Pet peeves: A few but sniffling annoys me the most
Q. Quote from a movie: "Now I need not call you Mr. Knightley, I can call you my Mr.Knightley,"- Emma from Emma (with Gwyneth Paltrow)
R. Right or left handed: Right.
S. Siblings: Hunter, Tyler, Laure
T. Time you wake up:  8:30 most days. 10 AM if I had a choice
U. Underwear: Not to bed.
V. Vegetable you hate: Brussel Sprouts
W. What makes you run late: Trying to decide on what to wear.
X. X-Rays you’ve had: Teeth
Y. Yummy food that you make: I like to bake cookies.
Z. Zoo Animal: Koala Bear. Cute and Awkward.

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

A page from my diary

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I am writing probably more honestly about my emotions then I have ever written.
But I can't keep it bottled up inside any more.
I am burnt out.
Yes, I am juggling going to school and working a full time job,
which is wearing me out
but if that was all I could trudge through to winter break and rest then
but it's not.
In my life I have wanted to be many things
but my heart has only wanted to be two things
a wife and a mother.
I have placed so much time and energy thinking and dreaming about those two things
I lose my focus.
But right now I am no where those goals.
In fact they feel so far away from me that they might as well be in California.

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And I don't know what to do...
in fact I feel lost.
I feel all around me that people are getting the things I want
and as happy as I am
I wonder why not me?
I feel this lacking on my life drains me
like little drips from a leaky sink

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I know, I know
you are going to tell me to "find my identity in Christ"
but is that it, is that all you have to say.
That's not enough.
What does it mean?
What do I do with that answer?
I feel like my pain was just pushed aside.
I need to know what that means, and how to do it.
I am not looking for rules or an A+B equation
just something that gives me more insight in to where I am to go from here.
Because right now I feel I have lost my way,
lost my path,
and my plan.

And I am not for sure where to go.
Thanks for reading.

Friday, September 23, 2011

Techy Ponderment...

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Honestly, what did we do before we had computers?

I have been asking that myself a lot this week. Long story I have been with out a computer since Tuesday night and I have no idea what people did with out them. Fortunately my work has a computer, my school library has lots of computers, and I still have my blackberry so I can still function as if I still had my own personal computer.

But I am left wondering what did we do? We must have watched TV, when the show was actually on and not depend on Hulu for it. We must have listened to radio to discover a new song instead of having Pandora tell us what music we like. And we must have carried around dictionaries so we didn't depend on the red squiggly line to tell us we miss spelled. Actually I still carry around a pocket dictionary in my school bag because sometimes I spell so bad spell check doesn't even know what I am talking about.

Since the loss of my computer was so tragic I have been in a daze not knowing what to write here or what do with out it. But I must move on... mostly because I can't live in a non computer world. This weekend a friend of mine, who know way more about computers and I are going to look for a new one. Then I will have to find money to buy a new computer and get one. But on a quirky note I have already decided to name my new computer Susie Q...Please don't ask me to explain the logic in the name, I don't have any.

Hope you have a nice weekend. 

Monday, September 19, 2011

A Peg?

Image of Peg Dolls
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 I know in high school every one tells you to "get out of your comfort zone experience something new." Maybe they were just telling me that because I seemed very pegged into a certain lifestyle. I don't mean to be a peg.  I think of myself as eclectic... liking music from Franki Valli and the Four Season to Beyonce and on the none pop side I am discovering a like for more The Dandy Warhol's and The Punch Brothers. But maybe I don't let people see my eclecticness (is that a word) because over this weekend I felt I had two incidences where people thought I wouldn't like something when I did. Maybe that sentence would work better if I described what I meant.

On Saturday night I went with out with kind of a new friend and some of her friends and we were walking back home she apologized for anything that made me feel uncomfortable. Which, on the surface is really nice. But I like over analyize things and I thought does she think I couldn't handle it, or I wouldn't like it. Maybe, yes I wouldn't have usually gone out to that bar. But that's only because I didn't know about it.
Picture of The Beehive
We went to The Beehive and I would say it is urban bohemian and a very cool atmosphere. And yes I may not have been my usual talkitive self but most of them were talking about architecture and I was just waiting for my way into the conversation since every one around me minus 2 girls were strangers. But I found it and eventually I was very comfortable talking. I don't really have "a scene" mostly because as long as its not too trashy or way to expensive I like a lot of things... I will go where people want to go. I don't go out very much so I don't have a usual place to go on a Friday or Saturday Night. But that doesn't mean just because it may not be my usual place (what ever that is) doesn't mean I won't like it. I loved being invited out and experiencing something new. And I bet I will go back again. So that is one instance where I don't like being pegged in for liking one thing over another.

If I don't know what it is how can I say I don't like it?

Another one incident where I felt like people pegged me was on Sunday. I was talking with a group of my friends. They were talking about all different groups in music. I said "I need a list so I can add these bands to my Pandora list." My friend gave me sort of a weird look and said "they were all blue grass". Okay? Maybe yes I wouldn't have usually chosen on my own to listen to blue grass but I can give it a shot. And I did. When I got home I actually googled Blue Grass Bands got some names (Alison Krauss & Union Station and Bela Fleck and the Flecktones) added them to my Pandora Quick Mix. While I was doing some homework I really liked it.  So yes before Sunday I would not have listened to blue grass music. But now that it is on my Pandora I will keep listening to it.

So if I don't know whats out there, how can I say I don't like it?

So yes, like most people I have a comfort zone rather it be in my movies I watch, the music I listen to and the places I like but that doesn't mean I can't discover something new and love it too. 

I just don't like being pegged into one catagory... I do want to explore whats out there just sometimes I need a little push.

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Okay these are just my thoughts from a non-peg.

Sunday, September 18, 2011

The Dinner Party

While watching the Emmy's I typed up more of my story... that was good home work break. 
To learn more about The James Family click here 
Found at "Will Type For Food"

That night at dinner Emmy sat next to Brandon.

            “Your sister, Mr. James tells me you are the British Ambassador’s right hand man.”
            “I don’t know if I would say that.”
            “Didn’t you just return from a trip from England with him where you met the Prime Minister?”
            “I did.”
            “Well I would say you are quite important then.”
            “You are kind Miss Cromwell.”
            Emmy laughed, no one ever called her Miss Cromwell, no one called her Miss anything she was just Emmy. But she could see laughter was not the right thing to do by the way he looked.
            “I am sorry Mr. James, I wasn’t laughing at you, I was laughing at being called Miss Cromwell that title belongs to my sister. I am just Emmy.”
            “How old are you?”
            “It is not right to call a lady by just her first name.”
            “But everyone does. Everyone calls me Emmy minus Miss Pembers; though my real name is Emmaline.”
            “That is an interesting name.”
            “What you mean is odd.”
            Brandon saw her sulk a bit. “No I mean not common but beautiful.”
            “It was my father’s mother’s name, I was born a month after she passed away. But everyone calls me Emmy. I am not graceful enough to have such a name as Emmaline.”
            “Why do you say that?”
            “My Grandma Danford tells me.”
            “Well I don’t want to dispute your Grandma but I disagree.”

            Emmy smiled.
Then it struck Brandon how much this young girl looked like Martha, his love from Oxford. Their faces could almost be identical with the same almond shape eyes and sweet smile that made her nose crinkle. Before he could speak again her sister Gloria had grabbed her attention. He overheard them talking and heard them talking about the piano.

            “Oh do you play, Miss Emmy?”
            “Hardly, Gloria and I were discussing how she and Laurel should put on a show for you and Miss James. They have the beauty and musical skills of the family. I can barely play hot cross buns.”
            “You don’t find music amusing then?”
            “To listen to yes but I cannot play music, even though to appease my Grandma I practice. I have neither the ear not the talent.”
            “Well then how do you delight your time?”
            “With stories. I love to write stories, one day I hope to be published,” she saw his little smile “I know it’s silly,” she said lowering her head.
            “Not at all,” he saw like she had before. “What do you write about?”
            “Adventure, passion, knights fighting for the girl he loves, princes in Africa. Everything my life is not.”
            “What do you mean?”
            “I have not lived any but this house and this town of Pine Haven. Not very adventurous and my Grandma Danford tries to stifle out all passion.”
            “Maybe one day you will see the world.”
            “Maybe, but it’s unlikely.”

Saturday, September 17, 2011

Grad-School Checklist

Hello Readers,

I have only been in school for two weeks and I already feel the drain, there never seems to be enough time in the day. But I have made some promises to myself... to keep my sanity

1. Do my homework/reading/projects on time
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2. Always carry a fun novel around... even if I don't read it a lot at least I will have it in my purse. To start off I will be carrying around Northanger Abbey. I have read it once before but I will like reading it again. 

3. Carry a notebook around with me everywhere.
I have always wanted a leather notebook but they were usually 50 dollars so I never bought one
but last week I was in Staples and they had leather (fake leather) journals for 9 dollars so I finally bought one. (This is not it but my journal is pink and I will use it to write more of my story.)
4. Remember my friends. 
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5. Remember I can't do it all...even though I would like to do it all and be every where at once I can't. 

6. Remember to breathe and take moments for myself... writing this blog is a moment for myself. 
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7. Drink Coffee and Get sleep 
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8. Remember to dream.
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Okay I think I have spent enough personal time on this... time to get ready to do some of that important learning. Have a good weekend everyone.

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Welcome Brandon James

I know some of you might have forgotten the story I am writing on the side of this blog, The Sisters of Pine Haven but I have not. I may not be on top of it as much as I would like thanks to grad-school but I am still writing. And now I would like to introduce you to Brandon James...

Brandon James is suppose to play the much the same role as Colonel Brandon played to Marianne in Sense and Sensibility. I love Alan Rickman in this role and I keep picturing him as I write my character Brandon James.

I do hope you enjoy...

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By a fortnight end Nicholas returned to Pine Haven with Miss James and her brother Mr. Brandon James. Within an hour everybody could see that she was exactly how Nicholas, described her genuinely kind, warm hearted and very intelligent. She quickly passed Grandma Danford’s interrogation being from a family with wealth as long as Americans history and showing she had proper breeding and would be fine match for Nicholas. Grandma Danford was pleased that Nicholas had made such a match on his own and he was not being forced into a marriage of such good standing, as she had once thought would be the case. Soon all parties fell easily into conversation. All but Miss James brother Brandon James, he was stand-off-ish and not in a sweet awkward way that Ethan Foster was but in a rude awkward way. Emmy thought the way he stood against the wall hardly saying two words together it was as if he was judging everyone in the room.
That was not the case Brandon James was not used to this much talking going on at any given moment and did not know how to interact. Brandon had been from his father’s first marriage but his mother passed away when he was three trying to give birth to his younger sister. As his father could not properly tend to business and take care of the child Brandon was sent to live with his aunt and uncle in England. It wasn’t until he was twelve that his father had re-married a Miss Elliot that he came back to America and fully lived in his father’s house. But his heart still belonged in England which is why he went to Oxford for education and began to work for the British Ambassador. With the new Mrs. James his father had another son Caleb and his daughter Kathryn both much younger than him. Caleb and Brandon never saw eye to eye but Kathryn adored her oldest brother and loved all the stories of England, it was the closest she got to real royalty. What both his siblings didn’t know about Brandon was while he was at Oxford he fell in love but when his father met her, he forbid the marriage. The girl came from no standing her father worked in a factory and Brandon only met her by chance while she was visiting her brother who went to Oxford on scholarship and was studying to become a doctor. It would not do for a James to marry so far beneath him. For awhile Brandon and she wrote but one day the letters stopped he wrote her but got no response. When Brandon was finally able to track her where about down he found her six feet under a head stone; Brandon tried to get in contact with her brother but heard nothing. After that Brandon only found delight in his sister. Kathryn was a great harpist and when ever her brother looked sad she would go over and play a little music on her harp. Kathryn never knew why Brandon got a sad look on his face but knew her music would cheer him up. After their father passed away his father passed away Brandon tried to spend more time at the home of his stepmother but was also very attentive to business. Kathryn always thought her brother lived too quiet of a life and wished he would go out to parties when he was invited but parties were too much for him and he preferred to stay in his own home, minus when work took him to England.  

For more on the James family click here

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Friday, September 16, 2011

Fun Pins

Hello Readers,

I have discovered something new  its not really new but it is new to me and I am love finding new images. I have boards on everything from "I like Pink", "Dreams for 'I do'" to "Coffee and Chocolate make me happy". 

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

When I Grow Up

When we are younger we have dreams of becoming doctor's or ballerinas. We all say "when I grow up I will be (fill in chosen profession)"... but when do we ever "grow up" in that context?

I think the first profession I wanted to be was a vet because I loved my dogs and I wanted to take care of other dogs. Of course my dogs were twelve pounds and also loved me and didn't mine me poking them or looking at there teeth. And I think I realized I that not all dogs were twelve pounds and being a vetI would have to deal with all types of animals and maybe not all of them would be so nice. So I walked away from the vet occupation. But I still love animals.

I think the next profession was a train conductor. When I was younger I watched "Shining Time Station" on PBS which is all about Thomas the Train and his friends. I loved it! I don't know if I ever asked or if I just knew my mom didn't have a lot of money back then so I never asked for a train set. I am not talking about electrical trains I am talking about a train set where you got to push the trains around yourself. But boy I wanted one... so what does a kid do... use their imagination of course! I took our movie booxes off the shelves and used the living room floor as my train track. I even remember my system. My Disney movie boxes were the engines because they were the biggest, the VHS we bought were the passenger cars, and the boxes that held recorded VHS stuff was the coal or freight cars.

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 During high school my mom, step-dad and I watched a lot of the show The West Wing and I wanted to be Donna. She was Josh's (Bradley Whitford) assistant and she she seemed so cool... she knew everything, she was depended on by every one but she didn't have any of the pressure to make the final call. I think even today I like that for a few months at my job I was a Manager on Duty and I hated those shifts because every one looked to me to make a call or be decesive... I am a great helper I am just not a manager. 
Donna played by Janel Moloney
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I have also wanted to be Abigail Chase from National Treasure. She worked for the National Archive and knew everything about everything, which seemed awesome (maybe if your a geek like me). This and my love for history might have been the reason I started pursuing my dual masters in library science and history. But after seeing the Library of Congress I knew I wanted to be able to walk through the Thomas Jefferson building every day... rather I was a tour guide, worked in the gift shop or actually worked as a librarian there.

A scene from National Treasure
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This post isn't really about how what I thought I would be doing when I was young, that was to give you, my lovely readers some background into my life. I have wanted to be other things from TV producer to screen writer. I feel there are many paths I would like to take. I want to be an historian, I want to be an author, I want to be an archivist, I also want to go to culinary school and learn how to make fancy desserts like eclairs (I think there might be a fat kid in me wanting to get out). I guess my dream job is to be a full time mom and when my kids are at school take time write (mostly historical fiction, so I can use my love of history) and then bake yummy desserts on the side.

I guess one day I will have to stop saying "when I grow up" and actually do the things I dream about doing. When will stop saying I am a "wanna-be historian" or a "wanna-be writer" or a "wanna-be archivist" and just be those things. I don't know if there is an actual year or an actual date. I think I will stop saying it when I realize I am it. I am a writer... I may not be published but I write a lot and I will work on getting to the other two.

I found this while doing a google search for "historical research" thought it was funny.
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  These are my thoughts for the day... hope you are pursuing what you want to be...even if its on the side from what pays the bills.

Sunday, September 11, 2011

Love some Melodrama?

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On Saturday Night I went to my friend's house and we watched North and South  a BBC miniseries based of Elizabeth Gaskell's love story. It is not about the Civil War as I orginally thought when my friend suggested we watch it. My friend told me it was mix of Jane Austen and Charles Dickens. I was intrigued to watch this because this friend does not like anything romantic so I was not going to pass up a chance to watch an historical romantic film with her but I knew nothing about it, and I don't really know Elizabeth Gaskell's writing but after watching this movie I am intrigued. Now if only it was winter break the next time I have free for fun reading. 

So the plot is a lot like like Pride and Prejudice...
Bessie Higgins
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Margaret Hale moves from her simple country village in the south part of England. A town she has romantic ideals about and cherishes in her heart to Milton a mill town (in the North, and completely different than the South) where she meets John Thorton. They immediately disagree and she's him really harsh, which I agree with. I mean the first time we meet him he punches a man for smoking in a factory. But John Thorton has a hard past. He has been working hard to get his family to the position it is in most of his life. Also smoking could cause the whole factory to burn down and its 100s of employees to die in the fire. So I guess reflecting on it, he harsh for a reason but it was little unsettling. Margaret has a hard time adjusting to this new life, she says even months after living there she makes wrong turns every where she goes. The people of Milton are proud and don't take charity even when starving. But she does make friends with Bessie Higgins, who you might know as Cassandra Austen from Becoming Jane. She is the daughter of Mr. Higgins who is trying to organize all the mill workers to unionize and strike. Of course the bosses (Thorton included don't want this and will use their power to stop it). Through out this time you see Thorton's budding feelings for Margaret, because she speaks her mind and stands up for what she thinks is right, ah women with independent thought are always attractive. The strike does happen but Thorton can't risk losing business just because he has no employees so he hires Irish men to come over and work. That only arises violence and in the sweep of things Margaret tries to calm the crowd and gets hit in the head with a rock.

Margaret defending Mr. Thorton
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People, including Mrs. Thorton (Thorton's mother) sees Margaret defending Thorton as a public deceleration of her love for him. So the next day he goes over and proposes... and like in Pride and Prejudice he is turned down. But it is so melodramatic it is just great to get swept up in. 

Then like in the BBC version of Pride and Prejudice you see Mr. Thorton walk away replaying the past incident, upset at what has just happened. The next hour is very much the Charles Dickens side of the story seeing the aftermath of the strike and the violence and sadly a few good characters die and Margaret is thrown into controversy. Her long lost brother returns home to be with her ailing mother and when he tries to sneak out of Milton people see her embrace him and not knowing she has a brother think she is scandalous. They also think she was involved in a murder, yeah its kind of complicated but I don't want to give away any spoilers. But when Margaret's name is brought up in controversy Thorton does what he can to protect her name from being spoiled. Also through some twist of the, Margaret ends up with a great deal of fortune and owning the mill Thorton has leased through her godfather Mr. Bell (yeah another complication) but like any good love story the couple ends up together happily.

Beside the melodramatic movie and the blend of a Jane Austen love story and the plight of the working man. I liked how accurate the movie was. In my history classes I have read stories about the mill factories being dangerous places to work. But this kind of brought it more to life. When ever there is footage of the mill factory we see cotton flying around. You see the danger of the working conditions that these mill workers have. And even Bessie through out the movie as a constant cough and complains it is a cold but really it is cotton particles clogging her lungs. These scenes are greatly shot. 

I also have to give a shout out for the great costume design. Rather they are the poor workers, to the high class Thortons and the in the middle the Hales every outfit captures the attitude of the character. 
Found at Felice's Log

To see more on this mini series check out these sites...
North and South
Felicie's Log
Enchanted Serenity of Period Films

From the Desk of A Wanna-be Historian

Hello Readers,

I am writing from my desk after just finishing scholarly articles for my Historical Methods class. A class that is laid out by the syllabus that "will explore various different models and methods for researching, analyzing and presenting history in both academic and popular forms (including films, journalism, internet sites, and museum exhibits)." Like most history classes we begin the class by discussing what history is. As it can be confusing... the word history is used in two ways 1) the events of the past (a very simple definition) and 2) the writing and interpretations of the past. It can also be confusing because as Carl Becker "Everyman His Own Historian" wrote that every thing we do is in the past. So what makes the past? What makes it history? Becker breaks the simple definition of "History is the memory of things said and done." Memory is a fickle thing to pass history on. As we all know one event could happen in our lives and can be perceived in many different ways. Also events can be forgotten unless written down right down, and it is said victors write the history. In our first class we read quotes that my professor collected quotes and one was by Winston Churchill "History will be kind to me for I intend to write it." So even if things are written down right in the moment of happening they can still be written down wrong because let's face it we are all bias. 

But we can not just let history be facts "left to themselves, the facts do not speak; left themselves they do not exist, no really; since for all practical purposes there is no fact until some one affirms it" (Becker). He later writes "the history that lies inert in unread books does no work in the world. The history that does work in the world, the history that influence the course of history is living history, that pattern of remembered events, whether true or false that enlarges and enriches the collective specious of, present of Mr. Everyman." There are certain things in the world and in our lives that can not be forgotten. Alexis de Tocqueville (a French political thinker and historian) best known for writing Democracy in America  first published in 1835 and then another volume in 1840 (a source used by many historians to get in the mindsets of early 19th century Americans) writes about the American Individualism. He criticizes Americans that our individualism makes "every man forget his ancestors" he writes that American's seek out newness and he says that each generation is a new people. This is why we can not purely allow on memory as a source of history. This view of Tocqueville is written in David W. Blight's article "'For Something beyond the Battlefield': Fredrick Douglass and the Struggle for the Memory of the Civil War." In Fredrick Douglass' lifetime he faced the problem that people were forgetting the Civil War and the reasons behind the war so the last part of his life was spent keeping alive the Civil War. For me a twenty-first century girl it seems hard to realize that people would forget something like the Civil War especially because when ever I go to the American History section of a book store rows and rows of books are dedicated to the Civil War. But maybe Fredrich Nietzsche is right in his suggestion happiness often requires a degree of forgetting the past (Blight). And after tragic events we have to move on, we are every day faced with an ever-changing present and that requires us to forget, maybe "to forget" is not the right word but "to shuffle away" things in order to move one. Douglass and Tocqueville both seem to agree that "As a people, Americans had always tend to reject the past and embraces newness." 

Is that true? I know most of us always want the newest gadgets, the newest thing in technology but have we have embraced the newness so much that we forget the past. For some things it is true. My post below (click here) is a collage of pictures from when I was younger...I posted them on my Facebook and my mom told me what was going on in them. I know for children we forget things before the age of five, it seems normal so I guess that is part of my forgotten past. But more historically I think it is true, we (every day people) can't remember every detail of the past that's why we have historians. But even still history is full of gaps. And I know as a wanna-be historian when studying history we look at history through our own lenses and that sadly blocks history from being told as well. Plus I know when I told people I was majoring in American History, and now going for my master's in History I know people look at me oddly because they think of history as a bunch of dates, dead people and every separate from them.So I think people have pushed the past behind them because it seems boring and not worth their time but I like the thought of history being a story of how we got to be where we are today and it leaves me with a sense of wonderment or mystery. Author Sam Wineburg in his article "Historical Thinking and Other Unnatural Acts" quotes historian Richard White "Any good history begins in strangeness. The past should not be comfortable. The past should not be a familiar echo of the present, for if it is familiar why revisit it? The past should be so strange that you wonder how you and people you know and love could come from such a time." I agree with this we should view the history as a strangeness and maybe we won't ever fully understand it but I as a wanna-be historian I look forward to being a sort of detective.   
Clio the Muse of History

A Glimpse Back in Time

My Grandma, who passed away in early June, did scrap booking before scrap booking was popular. When we pulled out the photo albums to go through there was a ping pong table, a card table and a random little table full of photos. I grabbed a lot for myself. These are a few of my favorites.

Thursday, September 8, 2011

Rainy Days

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The last few days it has been raining here in Boston. Usually I like the rain I think of London or Paris and it nice and peaceful. I sometimes find I am at most creative when it is raining outside... I don't really know why. I used to have a job in a quiet museum gift shop and when it rained there was hardly any crowds and I could get a lot of writing done in the rain. I even like the way the air smells when a storm is about to come.

I think dramatic moments in stories should happen in the rain like when Marianne meets Willoby.
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Or when Hugh Grant and Andie MacDowell finally get together at the end of Four Weddings and a Funeral.
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And the most important of Cinematic history in Singing in the Rain after Gene Kelly kisses Debbie Reyolnds he dances around in the rain storm with out a care in the world.

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There are probably 1,000s more where rain is used in movies. But see rain is inspiring. It is also seems fresh, like a wash away of what has happened and new starts.

But today I did not feel fresh or inspired I felt blah. It was hard motivating myself to get out of bed and to go through my morning routine. I just wanted to stay under the covers and do nothing. Granted this is a good way to spend rainy days too... but I had to get out of bed and go to work. And by the time I got to work I felt soaked through... not fun.

So rain even though I love you I am asking you to go away so I can enjoy some dry times. Thank you.

On a more positive note I am suppose to be getting Internet at home today so I can work on posting more of The Sisters of Pine Haven.

Who am I?

Inspired by my last post of going back to the roots of my blog... I wanted to re-introduce myself.

Name: Blaire
From: Oklahoma City,OK but when I was 11 my mom moved to the west coast first Seattle then San Francisco. Now I live in Boston, MA.

What I want to be when I grow up: A writer and a mom.

Favorite Ice cream: Right now I am really loving coffee icecream with chocolate mixed in.

Favorite Book: Emma- I know most people don't like it as much as the other Jane Austen books they see Emma as selfish. I see her as a hopeful romantic, she is ambitious on making sure the world works out to how she wants it to. Of course that ambition makes her flawed as she continuously messes up. But in the end she finds a man who loves her just the way she is... flaws and all.

Favorite Movie: Roman Holiday- I love Audrey Hepburn. On the outside
she has this great life being a princess but in reality she seeks to break out
of the palace and have some adventure and for one day she gets to do just that.
I also always hope at the end of the movie Gregory Peck and Audrey Hepburn will run away together and be happy... but it never happens. I guess if it did happen that way I would find it unrealistic and wouldn't love it as much.

Ideal day: Waking up with no alarm (around 10) getting my coffee that has some how magically brewed. Sitting and writing at my desk with a really good play list in the back ground. Then grabbing a late lunch with a friend or friends and seeing a mid-afternoon movie then go through a walk in a park or spending time in a book store. Not for sure about the night. I like being around my friends rather it be hanging out and eating pizza or going out to dinner.

One thing you should know about me: I can get songs stuck in my head very easily. And when people say things it makes me think of songs. For example if some one says sweet I think of "Sweet Caroline" by Neil Diamond.

One quote I think describes my life:

This is one of those key moments in life, when it's possible you can be really, genuinely cool - and I'm going to fail just 100%

-Hugh Grants sister in Notting Hill

Okay that's all for now maybe I will add to this list later.

Have a good day.