Right now I am feeling a little overwhelmed, I felt I was doing on my progress about thesis almost to the point of being cocky (sorry if I came off that way). Well I had a thesis advising meeting and she kind of told me I had done my historiography all wrong... BIG GULP! Well so let me get back to the drafting board. It is a set back but I am not going to let it get to me. I have changed into my yoga pants and flannel shirt (a frequent writing outfit), sipping on some tea, and taking a breath as I begin again.
Any way, in this overwhelmed moment I thought it would be good to list things I am looking forward to once this thesis is over...
1.Just being done will be so great- This thesis has kind of been a dark cloud hanging over me and once it is done I think I will just feel more free.
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| When this is true... it will feel so good {pic} |
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| Chuck! {pic} |
2. Watching mindless television. Is it sad that I am looking forward to this? I mean I do treat myself to episodes of Chuck and I watch some TV with my roommate but sometimes I feel guilty for not working on my thesis even when I am brain dead.
4. Writing my story... As much as I would love work more on my story "The Grand Days" (working title) I feel I really have no energy for it.
5. On a more serious note...I look forward to finding my passion. While I have been in school, especially more as I have been facing the end of school, I have felt a stirring that I am not living out on my faith. Looking back on the past few years the last time I felt truly passionate about something was when I was preparing to go to Honduras and doing Living Water work. I keep praying God to guide my steps and help me follow my faith (though I am not sure what that looks like). I would like the freedom to explore this idea more...Probably not full time ministries, but being open to trips and opportunities.
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| In Honduras at the well sight |
From outside thesis cave: When I was meeting with my advisor she said for my historiography (as analogy) "I need to stop eating the cookies and think about how they were made." I started laughing because it reminded me of the FRIENDS episode where Monica is trying to discover Phoebe's Grandmother's secret recipe of chocolate chip cookies. That is what a Historiography is... it breaks down past research, the way research was done, and how research on my topic has changed or progressed.
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2 comments:
Tons of encouragement from La Quinta as you plunge in again. You can do this...analyze those cookies! And, happy for you that your 'thesis cave' such a better environment than last year. Big Hugs!
P.S. Maybe God's voice, His direction, is staying quiet for the moment. Perhaps it's His wisdom, letting you get through this situation, not adding more data, at this time, to your already hard working brain. One example, Dr. Brantly, the 'ebola doctor,' said that God was quiet all through his medical studies, and it made him wonder if being a doctor was what God wanted for him. Then, BAM, as soon as his degree was in hand... there He was, speaking loudly.
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