No Fight Left
By: JJ Heller.
Dear Anne,
Well over the past couple of weeks my church has been going through the book of Jonah. He is mostly known for Jonah and the Whale but that is so little part of the story. When Jonah goes to Nineveh (the bad guys) and after little convincing they repent and our saved from destruction. The story goes further but I am going to stop right there. Both Jonah and the people of Nineveh had turned away from God and both were saved by God's never ending grace. At the end of the sermon my pastor said "there is nothing you can do to out run God's grace". As awesome as that statement is I will admit I didn't go right home and immediately go to God (as I should have done) but later Sunday night as I was brushing my teeth I read the verse taped near my mirror.
"Find rest O my soul in God; my hope alone comes from Him" (Psalm 62:5)
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praying, I realized I keep underestimating God's grace. God's majestic saving and healing powers.
I wrote that first part and then during my weekly phone date with my dad, I just couldn't hold back the tears anymore. He was just talking about how I was doing so well, I was climbing Mount Everest (in Grad-School) and I am at the last 10% and this is the hard part. I told him I didn't feel I was climbing Mount Everest I felt I was going a downward spiral to no where. I hate standing some days and I just want to hide and cry.
I realize I am much like Jonah in the whale. I am going through a hard time and as easy as it would be for me to just retreat and sulking in my distress. I need to turn to God and find my hope in him. Right now this is easier said than done.
Today I read Psalm 86 and it was exactly what I need to read. So while I am still in this low place, I need to remember God is with me. I just wish I felt Him more.
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Thanks for reading.
Yours,
Blaire
P.S. Is it bad that I just want to spend the day eating chocolate and staying in my PJ's?
P.S. Is it bad that I just want to spend the day eating chocolate and staying in my PJ's?
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