Hello lovely readers,
A few weeks ago I posted a #littleloves post to update you all on what's going on in my life.
This is like that but with a twist. In my post "Questions while being stuck" I wrote I was going to take a break from blogging. Well as soon as I got back from my trip to Paris I couldn't wait to sit down and write a blog post. I have done and re-done this post a few times but it didn't feel right... so here I am trying again.
Lately I have been feeling stuck in my story. I have introduced two new characters Leopold Brashware and Violet Harper. Leopold is suppose to be a romantic tension for Mattie but eventually he will be useful in helping Mattie discover her true feelings for Kelby. Violet Harper, is Mattie's maid in London. I want to grow her character and eventually I want them to end up like Anna and Lady Mary (Downton Abbey).
Tobey Regbo who play's Francis on the CW Reign is my inspiration (at least in looks) for Leopold.
I love Anna Smith, she is full of good advice for Lady Mary.
I am going to make Violet Harper a bigger character and I actually want to have her help Mattie run away to elope with Kelby. So I am going to have to change a few details of the story.
I have started with a fictitious acknowledgement page...
but maybe I am the only ones who reads those.
If this story ever gets published perhaps I will have to work with my editors on layout.
I feel I have re-written my beginning a thousand times (okay more like five) and its only in it's first draft, but I want it make sense for the story.
I have usually been the kind of author who gets struck by inspiration and I just go from there... needless to say this path has not lead me to finish any story.
I originally started Mattie's story years ago but then I got distracted by other work "Sisters of Pine Haven" and put Mattie out of my mind.
But she keeps coming back to me...so I feel determined to finish it.
My original start was in 2009 (link to that post)
but it originally started with a free write I did that same year when I first started this blog in order to share my stories
This blog has gone through a lot of transitions since then but at the heart of it is my desire to write.
Even though I am still re-writing the beginning of this story I have sketched out the epilogue of my story... is that weird?
It doesn't feel weird it actually feels good because in knowing the end I know where I want to take this story and it has some direction to it.
Why am I stuck?
I wish I knew.
One reason I think I am stuck is because as much as I think about my writing... I need to make time and actually write. DUH!
Also as I said I am the kind of writer who usually gets struck by inspiration and from there I just go. However with this story I have plotted out an outline and actually know what I want to happen but yet I let my characters move in the way they want. Which is good and useful but sometimes it throws new things or people at me... for example Leopold.
On a personal note: I also think I am stuck because I don't really know that much about romance. I have dated but mostly mostly what I know about romance comes from movies and books. So I feel I don't know how to move Mattie forward in the romantic plot line and therefore I feel stuck.
However, I find confidence in thinking about Jane Austen, she never married and yet she wrote some of the most romantic stories (I my biased opinion).
Pic above is from the movie Miss Austen's Regrets
What to do now?
With all that said and done I think the real challenge will be for me to actually push through and write this story.
Writing will only happen by doing... so I say this ahead of time sorry friends and family if I seem absent to the world, but I am trying to follow my dreams and I hope you will understand.
All these #little love post have a watching section and I felt I had to share something...
Since getting back from Paris (I will not get tired of saying that) I binged watched on Netflix (maybe another reason I haven't been writing) and I came across the show When The Heart Calls it is a sappy Hallmark Channel original show based off of a Janette Oke book.
Even though it is sappy and the lines are cheesy I can't help but squeal. It feels like the perfect video escapism.
Video above is a fan made video: "Jack and Elizabeth | So Close"
Song: "So Close" by Jon McLaughlin. (Originally from "Enchanted").
Okay that is all for now.
Hope you guys have a good day.